Well it’s Friday again, not even seven am and I have seemed to have checked out. I stayed up too late worrying. It’s really not fair to my family and most of all to myself. I can’t wait for Monday when I feel like things get back to normal. But Monday is in three days so I must find a way to fix this! Have you ever heard of starting your day over? That’s exactly what I have to do. Not only for my family for my self and to be able to have peace. They shouldn’t have to be taken on my rollercoaster ride. I can’t change the world. I can’t change people. I can’t change that I’m constantly forgeting about signing up for something for Henri’s school, shirt color changes for pictures, book fairs, pizza days, food for the hungry…the list goes on. I can’t change the mistakes I made with disciplining my children. I can only change myself and my reactions to life. We have a full weekend ahead. Birthday party and possible snow sighting. Life is good. I am sleep deprived but lack of sleep never killed anyone. I’d be dead a long time ago!
Today I am going to stay in the moment. When I catch myself obsessing or worrying I am going to redirect my thinking. I am going to focus on the positive and how lucky I am to have so many wonderful people in my life.
I am posting a video of my favorite teacher and motivator of life de jour, Kelly Stout-Hutcheson. She talks about the freedom in letting go. She also mentions faith and how we should look back at the things we have worried about and think about how they played out. Didn’t they work out exactly the way they were supposed to? My faith is what drives me. My fear is what holds me back. She also mentions that faith is like Wifi, you can’t see it but it’s always there. So at seven seventeen am I am starting my day over. I look forward to having an amazing weekend! Enjoy the video and check out her facebook page